I completed the Integral Assessment and I feel I need to focus more in the biological and interpersonal areas my being. I need more focus on my fitness and my family. These areas are where I am still in my mind, so to say. I am still looking at my family as separate from others. My family and I are Us and other people are you. I once new my family as All of Us and adopted the World. This caused me some distress in other areas of my life and now my family is my family. This really not been working for me like it used to. Now I want to reconnect with that feeling of wholeness which I once new. This should not be a difficult task for I am already seeing that I have extended my family out to include many others, just not the whole World, yet. My fitness I feel is still stuck in the mind/body and I want to achieve a more whole feeling in my fitness routine. That is why I want to take back up Tia Chi. It will reconnect me with my soul body more and I will feel even more at ease with myself.
I understand where you are coming from about the adopting the whole world again. I use to be an extremely open person and was able to accept people for people. I am trying to get back to a place like that, but not allowing their stresses to influence my life in a negative manner. I am very open with society and fairly active in society but I have only one close friend outside of my husband(issues with trust). I truly believe this "wholeness" isn't meant to cause more stress but to create a sense of being or oneness.
ReplyDeleteexactly, Shauntae, and I want to be able to trust people more and let them in but for now I am satisfied with most the people I know only knowing me as I let them see me. I do of course accept and embrace many with all their issues. I just simply do not trust many with how i may be doing.
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